Comfortable

Things have change since the last time I have posted. Erika had a major anxiety attack last night and one this morning and because of the increased pain medication it might have heightened the experience. She was confused, scared and crying, which made me sad because I knew their was nothing that I could do for her. I had to just try to do my best to comfort her and let her know that I loved her and that she was safe and that everything was going to be ok, even though I knew that wasn't true. The doctors and all of us decided that it was time to change her pain medication so that she got a continuous dose all the time to try and make her feel as comfortable as possible. I absolutely do not want her to feel scared anymore. Erika has slept most of the day, from the morning until the evening. She has woken up a couple more times tonight and it seems she is in distress when she wakes up and still in a confused state, so tonight we slightly increased the medication dosage and so far it has seemed to help.

She can still be woken if we really try but at this point I don't want her to feel afraid, so were trying to make as little noise as possible in the room so we don't disturb her. So if you have tried to call the room today, I'm sorry but the phone has been unplugged.

I'll try to keep everyone posted if anything changes and I still plan on writing everyday, although I don't get a chance until real late. Right now were not having any visitors. Now the most important thing is to keep Erika as comfortable as possible during this time. If you feel you need to pray, please pray for that.